Shame doesn't apply to you does it?

I really wish I was there to guide her again,putting myself into deep shit just to save her ass.Its not that I like trouble,I feel I must do what I have to do.I don't think she knows what shame is.I could see her pink panties in one of her photos.She can't feel love,she doesn't know what it is.But then again,she never did know it.Even when I was with her.Maybe,just maybe during the time I was with her,she knew what love is.Today,just witnessed a cremation at Mandai Creamatorium and family members were wailing when the body went into the furnace.Even though I didn't know him.I still feel the pain that his family had to go through.I did the most weird thing I never thought of doing-praying for a person I did not know.I lost my Onyx and steel cross 2 days ago when I went to a funeral at Ang Mo Kio Avenue 6.We were lucky the police didn't come.It was a Christian-Chinese funeral.If you went there,you could feel the love for the dead person the family had-taking every single chance to see the dead body before it went away.I hope God comforts them.especially the wife and kids.The deceased died from disease and has one of his legs amputated.I also wish He can guide Dani.Guide her along the right path and not be so stupid sometimes.Her stupidity sometimes......amazes me.She wasn't that dumb before she went there.I wonder what happened.Maybe Jamie?Blaze the Vampire?Or Feeq?Or maybe...Myself?Jeez....really wish I know the reason.If she didn't go there,I would still be with her.and will be our 5 years anniversary.Yes I counted.Dear God..protect that...that.......ignorant person will you?Im willing to guide her again.But I hope you guide her..Protect her from trouble.She fell into the depth of stupidity,can she ever get back up on her own feet?